smoking

so, i have been cutting back for a week and yesterday was my first full day without ciggarettes. today is day 2 and my head is in the clouds!!! this is what happens. ive been here before. maybe this is the last time. its tough, no doubt. and im the worst kind of smoker....i love it. but its just like a bad relationship-no matter how much you feel the love its just not good for you. so you have to walk away. i always go through a bit of an identity crisis when i try to quit. i dont get so much sensitive as i just feel very vulnerable. i also feel dumb for a while because my brain is basically going through a major resetting as its not running with certain chemicals anymore. i lose words, i forget simple things. it more than anything makes me want to hide out in my hotel room until i dont feel like im walking around naked anymore. 3 or 4 days.... so, this picture, taken in the uk as a joke, is now a reminder of why im doing this.