kitty karma

wtf!?!?! i think i am cursed...

red-mysterious dissapearance, baby-feline leukemia, calico-weird wasting disease,shalla-bal-car accident, branford-dissapeared, thomas-failure to thrive, karma(oh my sweetest little furball)-dog attack IN MY BACKYARD! as in two dogs jumped into my backyard and attacked and killed a gimpy cat that couldnt get away and didnt know to be scared of them.

i have had one damn cat that actually died of old age and natural causes. tucker still isnt home. i kept dreaming of him all night. its amazing how no matter what steps i take to protect my cats as i learn about the horrors that befall them-i still cannot seem to keep them safe. and this is why i am NEVER EVER having children. when karma was killed i cried like i would never get over it. i ached physically from the amount of emotional pain i felt over this animal-my constant companion for eight years.and then a few months later a tiny healthy replica of him ran into my front door. i thanked the universe and we named him tucker after the way he would do this little stevie wonder move and tuck his head into us-with total trust, total love.

just once-i want the miracle. im sick of dead or dissapeared cats. i just want him to come home.